When I was younger, I carved an “Unequal” symbol into my middle finger – the math symbol. Because I felt less than. Because I felt lowly in my image and self-esteem as an eighth-grader searching for her identity in a new world of hormones, loss, and public school. Because I wanted to fit in. Because I wanted friends, a life, acceptance.
I thought the mark would fade after some time. I thought it would just go away with my changing body one day. But it’s stayed. It’s a part of me. I have to live with it; it’s stuck on me every day until the day I die. My first tattoo, carved with a retractable pencil at the lunch table of a middle school. It hasn’t faded a day since I’ve done it.
But now I look at it, now I see its truth: I’m not equal, but I sure am not lowly or mediocre or less than. I don’t think I’m better than or superior to anything either. But I am not equal. I was never born for ordinary. I was never made to fit in. I have always been different. I’ve always walked a higher path. I am totally unequal to my peers in ways they will absolutely NEVER understand or could possibly equate themselves to. And I cherish this.
Messages from the grave and beyond, I thank you. For all the lessons and lifetime of practices, how could I ever be prepared for something so subtle as this reminder from ten years past? …
Life has a funny way of coming full-circle…
It ain’t so bad. Honestly, where I tend to cheat is the lesser of two evils: dairy over gluten and gluten-free over gluten. I still can’t stomach diary outright, but if it’s baked into something, it’s a little different. (But I still love my SO Delicious Ice Cream!) So if I’m going to have pizza or a dessert, I forgo the wheat, sub the rice/grain and input a little dairy here and there. Yeah, I pay for it, but I’d rather do it this way than any other, and only with a craving and in the mood.
Check up on cheating in the links or right here: http://www.paleoplan.com/2011/04-15/cheating/
A ball of chocolate chip cookie dough ready for baking. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
When you go out, you can still eat paleo. I subbed the bread and home fries for fruit and turkey bacon. Absolutely delicious breakfast at Wheezie’s Kitchen!
I was able to make these and took some liberty with the recipe. I doubled the recipe because it truly only makes maybe one or two, and this made five small cakes in a muffin tin. It’s chocolatey looking because I added carob powder to the mix, topped it with coconut shreds and strawberries and instead of a homemade whipped cream, I made a homemade chocolate icing! It was heavier and richer than it would have been with whipped cream but definitely divine. If I’d only had about half of a whole cake with everything on it, it would have been perfect and filling.
Great idea from a lovely gal!
Paleo Banana Pancakes (Grain/Gluten/Dairy-free).
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So, I’ve never blogged before, and this is going to be pretty fun, I’m thinking! A lovely guy gave me the idea to start this, as well as a bunch of people asking me how I manage doing the Paleo Diet in college and what advice and suggestions I have for them. Well, hopefully this blog sums up everything I could ever say.